Monday, August 29, 2011

Finally Happened

Got a phone call Friday morning from husband saying that he could not live like this anymore and that he was moving out.  I went back to work and called the attorney to get the paperwork in process to file for divorce.

Got notice from the attorney today that the beginning paperwork has been filed in court and now we have to wait the "30" days out from today.  Which means the divorce will be final by the end of September.

I hate this waiting. 

I am thinking about my future and what I want to do.  I am going to start by cleaning out my house and try to start making it look livable and clean rooms and throw a bunch of stuff out or donate.

This is going to be a new chapter in my life.  I can say that I have been Blessed these past 8 years with Scott and he has helped me thru things in my life.  He has been my rock and held me and let me cry on him.  I do wish him the best of luck with his "new" life.

The hurt of what has happened between us is gone.  I will always carry a "Love" for Scott for being there with me thru the hard times and teaching me new things.

My new motto in life is, "Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Eight Months

I did not really know that yesterday was eight months that mom left her earthly body and went to her perminate home above.  As I stood at her footmarker at the cemetary, I just stared at the ground wondering how I have made it thru eight months without hearing moms voice.

I finally got to speak with my Aunt who lives in Virginia today.  This is the first time that we have talked since mom passed away.  Aunt Claudia sounded so good, but is going thru some health issues.

I had to tell her again about the death of mother and what all I have been thru these months.  I know that if Aunt Claudia could be here she would.

I told her that if it was not for Scott standing beside me thru all of this, that I did not know how I would have made it.

YES, I have not posted in over a month, but Scott and I are working on our marriage and taking it one day at a time.  I think that it is mental harder on me then it is for him. 

He had four months with this "woman" and knew what he was doing.  Then when I found out, I blew up.  I Love My Husband more then words can say, but if he decides to choose her over me, then that is something I will have to live with.